Every mommy fears for their children.
Fear is something that occurs in every mommy's heart, and I don't think it ever leaves. Even as our children grow, and have more courage than we could ever imagine, we continue to fear for them.
I have often said that simple events like well-child check-ups at the doctors office, when the kids have to receive shots, are harder on the parents than they are on the kids.
I always spend these moments in prayer. Praying seems to settle my heart, and give me a little peace, even though my heart still aches for my babies.
When my little men begged me to let them ride on a monster truck at the auto expo recently, my heart was in my throat, just thinking about it!
I asked their father, who is one of the most cautious people I know, and he thought it would be okay.
So, I paid the $15 and let the boys climb up onto this GIGANTIC monster truck - thinking that the Lord would protect them, and they would be just fine, since the truck was only going to be driving around the parking lot.
I started to take video, and continued to pray that the angels would act as the seat belts for my babies, as they were riding. My littlest man kept leaning over the edge of the truck watching the tires!!!
Then the truck started doing DONUTS in the parking lot, and I had visions of my boys being thrown out of the truck, and being run over by those giant tires.
I had to turn off the video camera and pray even harder!
I asked one of the gentleman working the monster truck exhibit if my boys were okay up there, and if they would slow down so they wouldn't fall out.
He assured me that they were safe, and commented that they charge extra for having people fall out!!!
Okay, I was seriously AFRAID for my boys' lives!!
They survived, as did I.
Every time I think of this event, I get very tense, and fear takes over. I have to remember that God is in control, and that my boys will always have more courage than me!
"Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6
"The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?" Psalm 27:1
When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?
For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.